Weight: 130 lbs
Dosage: 20 mg oral in gel cap
Setting: My apartment
Set: Was recently busted by parents with drugs for first time in a year, they confiscated a large amount of 4-AcO-MET, feeling really bummed and stressed about that, guilty and afraid
Set: Was recently busted by parents with drugs for first time in a year, they confiscated a large amount of 4-AcO-MET, feeling really bummed and stressed about that, guilty and afraid
T0:00-20 mg taken in gel cap
T0:17-starting to feel chills,
slight nausea
T0:25-So far only feel body load,
nausea, general discomfort and cold
T0:53-still just discomfort, it’s
building and almost seems as though it’s coming to a crescendo. Jogging in
place and doing jumping jacks relieves some of the muscle aches.
T1:03-I decide to take a hot
shower to ease the chills and try to calm some of the discomfort in my limbs. In
the shower I try to sit down and curl up and do whatever it is I can to ease
this unnerving discomfort. The water feels like its clattering on me, my body
flatly refusing to take in any of its warmth and life. I sit down and a feeling
begins to come over me, like some dark force has begun burning in my stomach
and is seeping into my veins. I stare at the wall as the droplets on it begin
to flow and drift. They begin to merge and form into vague biomorphic shapes,
the drops seeming to be part of some hivemind or collective consciousness. Each
drop seems like an ant creeping up and down the shower. As the wall behind them
begins to swirl with color my face contorts into a twisted grin. I have such a
warm feeling of satisfaction from watching these droplets march down the wall,
yet there is such a sinister feeling, as if my perception is at the mercy of
nature. I am aware of how cruel nature can be, but there is pleasure in knowing
that it is being merciful right now. It is like watching the beauty of a
thousand ants slowly dismantle a corpse.
T1:30-I feel very different then
when I went into the shower. I am definitely tripping a lot harder. The body
load is fading to an agitation, the nausea to a feeling of deep seated
poisoning, as if I can feel a burn where the capsule landed in my stomach and
that burn is creeping through my extremities.
Sinister and dark and also
charming, I feel giddy and giggly despite a physical feeling that is distinctly
powerful and harmful. Not overwhelmingly malevolent, just harmful, like a
venomous animal with a bad temper.
OEV's have greatly picked up-
geometric forms adorn the borders of my vision and mainly flash red and green.
Patterns that resemble twisting dragons or serpents adorn white spaces,
reminiscent of Aztec designs or Pacific Northwest Indian Art.
It feels like I’m being squashed
under an oppressive root tangle of visuals making the poison in my veins glower
ever more. A thousand intricate patterns roll past my consciousness in the
edges of my vision, intricately patterned wheels, mostly green now.
T2:00-I go outside. Our fucked up
shrine to hedonism made out of 40 bottles and a Halloween mask is covered in
stag beetles.
I took pictures just to make sure
What the fuck.
The sky is beautiful and swirling
and everything feels like swirling dark around me, like the tide is washing in
around me as dusk sets in
I can feel the thousand
consciousnesses of a thousand insects dance around me, everything feels like
bugs this trip. The visuals crawl and creep like a march of ants, the patterns
seem to be made of groping segmented legs, the entire world feels like an
invisible force swarming around me like a trillion flies. As it gets darker
outside I begin to pick up shadow figures in the corner of my vision, more and
more of them, some seem to dash around my peripheral while others seem to stop
and stare. I decide to go inside now.
T2:30 I have uncomfortable chills
and shivers. The intensity of trip comes and goes in waves, best observed
through my entire field of vision wobbling and swirling like I am viewing the
world through heat waves. This would sometimes fade to relatively normal vision
and sometimes crescendo to a big rippling rainbow swirl. I feel giggly and stimulated-
it is certainly a fun trip, albeit an uncomfortable one.
Strange sounds around me are
triggering a distinctly evil panic feeling, reminiscent of the noises that
triggered a panic when I was on mushrooms in here that one time.
I sit on my bed and read
obsessively about beetles for like 2 hours.
T4:10 I take a big big hit of
weed, one of those hits where I lose track of how big a hit I’m taking and I
get demolished like a big smoky wrecking ball has swung through my lungs.
I am above where I was before- CEV's
are vivid photoreal images of insects, as if taken from a nature documentary.
They dance around and become my existence.
Every light source seems like
blistering sunbeams, crackling with crystalline prisms.
There are organic synesthetic
visuals of cartoonish landscapes, with beings who interact with waves and
sensations of sound. These are not autonomous entities but merely projections,
it is like I am watching a cartoon on a screen.
My visual field dissolves into
iridescent ripples shooting in four ways from each word on my screen. Soon my
entire field of vision is rippling like a puddle, and distant objects extend
away, becoming more and more distorted and warped and rippled the more they
recede.
Definite auditory effect, like a
thousand bells in various tones accompanying each other.
There is no body load to speak
of, at times the room seems to shrink and box me in
The fan feels like a thousand
moths flying against me. Still the feeling of everything being biomorphic, and
particularly reminiscent of insects.
Conclusion: This trip had a very
dark and sinister essence the entire time, and just very much reminded me of
insects at various points. Something about the trip seemed to creep and crawl.
Body load was relentless but was tolerable at points. There was just a lot of
energy flowing through me- this stuff would be good for going swimming.
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