Age:20
Weight-120 lbs
Dose: 20 mg
ROA: Intranasal
Set: Was kinda
bored and tired all day. Had finally managed to get out to my friends house
across the city at 1 AM. Was feelin wacky and wanted a fun subway ride home
Setting: Subway,
House
Preface: Did 20
mg 2C-B orally and abt 3 g of GHB many hours earlier in the day. It was ok, the
trip was pretty light but definitely there, I had some friends over and I
really was itching to go on an adventure. I got to drive around the city before
being dropped off at my friend’s house on the other side. I was mostly down to
baseline and wanted to kick things back up.
T0:00- Insufflate
20 mg. The searing pain hits instantly, along with the bodyload. I am stricken with
nasty nausea and discomfort, along with intense sweating. The pain is shocking
and profound- as if I have an arrow lodged halfway in my face, or as if I have
snorted hot pepper. My body feels like it’s been thrown into a hot greasy storm
as tears stream out of my eyes. I immediately question if this is worth it. Holy
shit this is uncomfortable. My friend gets me a sweet drink as a chaser but it
doesn’t help much at all. They hasveto go to bed so I gotta be out of their
hair in a bit, but I feel like I’m going to throw up and I feel like I need to
curl into a ball. Once the pain subsides, the drip comes, it stings my palate
as it goes down and makes me feel like I have a sore throat, only with a
nauseatingly bitter flavor in my mouth too. I have to refrain from vomiting as
each drop travels down my throat and hits my stomach. Why why why why why why
did I do this.
T0:10- They say they’ll
walk me to the subway station, so we leave together. I am fighting the urge to
vomit my guts out, I feel so sick, sick is the only way I can describe it, it
is a chilling and crippling toxic malaise, from the bitterness in my mouth, to
the electric nausea, to the serotonin blasts zapping my muscles, to the sore
throat and the residual pain in my face, I am mentally in a fog and definitely
do not feel as if this was worth it. Visuals begin to pick up on this walk as
my only real consolation. It is about 3 AM when I reach the subway station and
they bid me farewell.
T0:20- I am
sitting in the station. At this hour the trains only come once every 30
minutes. Fine by me. I rock back and forth on a bench. All of the awful
symptoms are subsiding. The general discomfort in my limbs and face lingers,
but the nausea and pain fades. The visuals are beginning to really pick up as
patterns of various interlocking parallel lines begin to form on every surface,
flashing in lime green and magenta. Oddly enough there are fewer visuals when I
close my eyes. The patterns dance and morph on every surface, structured to fit
the forms of everything as defined by shifts in value. Its as though the
contrast of the world was raised, casting every form into zones of gradation,
and the patterns molded to the shape of each zone. People join me on the
platform, the odd late night crew of people who ride the subway at 3 AM. They
seem so strange, I feel like I deconstruct their existence by staring at them,
I wonder what story has brought them to this place in this moment. I wonder how
I look, rocking back and forth on the bench and staring aimlessly at blank
surfaces.
T0:35- The subway
comes. I climb into a seat and curl up into a ball with my head tucked between
my knees. Anyone who rides it this late is probably not perturbed by someone
being obviously and heavily intoxicated. And not like I wasn’t in control, but
I felt safe enough to close my eyes and sink into the trip as well as I could.
Closed eye visuals ended up not being interesting though, so I simply zoned out
and took in the world with a thousand-yard stare. Patterns resembling the
organized scribbling of graffiti (especially the ‘wicked’ style originating
from and prominent in this city) appeared on every surface, giving the subway
the appearance of one of those subway cars from New York in the late 70’s, the
insides completely saturated with scrawlings. It felt like I had unlocked a
hidden world, that the encoded messages of the spirits etched on every surface,
normally beyond or below our perception, had been illuminated. It was as if
they were basic notes and commentary guiding every object, or the source code
underlying existence. I entertained this idea for a bit, letting it chew on my
mind and enter the territory of full delusion that normally only arises from
dissociatives. The sounds of the train shooting through the tunnels are
spectacular and entertaining, further adding to the cyberpunk surreality I have
subjected myself to. It definitely feels worth it now.
T0:40- I arrive
at a station where I transfer trains. By sheer chance I encounter one of my
friends here. I haven’t talked to him in a long time but we used to be pretty
close. He hangs out on the platform with me for a while, his company is warm
and reassuring and the sheer randomness of our encounter feels like an embrace
from entropy. After he leaves I find myself staring at the walls and floors,
watching them like TV screens, the patterns the characters in some absurd
geometric sitcom or documentary or something. I look and feel really out of it,
though I am also feeling a strong sense of euphoria. The next train comes and I
board. The ride was more spacing out and being surrounded by imaginary graffiti.
T0:50- I get off at
the stop closest to my house. I am still tripping pretty hard. I smoke a joint
walking home and come into the house with it still hanging from my lips. It’s
been a long night. I collapse on the couch of our living room and smoke the
rest of the joint down to nothing. It feels immaculately relaxing, I feel so
good. It feels so nice to have a house where I can just walk in smoking a joint
and throw myself onto a couch without anyone telling me not to. It feels so
nice to be on semi-obscure drugs. It feels so nice to be finally back home,
warm, familiar, and safe. I go to my room and read stuff on facebook, finding
everything more interesting and stimulating and profound than they really are.
T1:00-I begin
reading Jojo’s bizzare adventure. The nuances of each line of script and each
individual panel and illustration and each bit of plot development are
beautiful and profound. It is immensely entertaining and I feel like I am
appreciating it as hard as I possibly could be. Every line seems so perfectly
and deliberately placed. I do this for two hours as I come down.
T3:00-My roommate
returns home from a long night of doing acid. We smoke together and talk about
some stuff as the sun rises. I shower soon after and smoke some more. I am not
really tripping as much anymore, visuals have died down, there is just a really
nice relaxing comfortable and euphoric afterglow. I go to sleep at about T4:30
Conclusion: This
stuff is a blast, insufflated is the fast and furious way to take it, it hits like
a fucking brick. It doesn’t feel worth it at all for about 10-15 minutes but
after that it definitely feels worth it for the next 5 or so hours. The pain is
wicked and the discomfort that follows even worse. Everything the powder
touches inside my face burned and stung, I felt sniffly and teary and extremely
uncomfortable for a good bit. 2C-B is super colorful and visual, and it can be
deep and profound if I let it. If I so desire, I can also just feel euphoric
and interact with people, as social skills are not really degraded in any way.
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