Age: 24
Weight: 125 lbs
Dosage:
90 mg oral
Setting:
Friend’s birthday party
T0:00-
I got off work and got on the trolley. I was headed to a friend’s birthday party.
I wanted to dose as quickly as possible after work since it was already pretty
late, so I ended up dosing while on the trolley. I broke open the gel cap and
directly swallowed 2 large crystals of Eutylone that totaled to 90 mg while I
put on makeup. I wash the bitter crystals down with ginger ale.
T0:30-
I only begin to feel the first notes as I walk up to my friend’s house. There
is a spring in my step and I feel warmer than I should on this bitter February night.
T0:45-
I am welcomed into the house and quickly shed most of my layers as I am now very
warm. The first notes were tentative and uncertain, but now that I am free of
winter’s grip, the drug comes hurtling through me unbridled. I find myself
suddenly short of breath, there’s a benign tightness in my chest, as though I
want to breathe faster than is physically possible. My heart is beating faster
than normal, but it isn’t pounding or racing in any way that is uncomfortable.
I feel giddy and elated, there are so many people here I want to talk to but I
decide to anchor myself on one of my closest friends there for now, just so I don’t
tire myself out.
T1:00-
I’m talking a lot, I’m talking very fast. I feel like I have so much I want to
say and the words spill out like a waterfall. There seems to be no interruption
or inhibition between my brain and my mouth. I feel like I’m going so fast, though
I don’t necessarily feel overstimulated or restless. I am perfectly content to
sit still on the ground, there is no need to pace or let off excess energy. I
roll a joint for myself and a few friends who choose to partake.
T1:15-
I smoke a joint, it seems to flare up the mental effects a little, but its
hardly noticeable against the ambient heat of this drug. I am still talking a
lot. We are watching The Phantom Menace now for some reason. Despite my
heightened sociability, I don’t feel that shameful sense of doubt I get normally
on empathogens where I sense I am overwhelming people or being overly
sentimental. In my mind at least, my words are profoundly neutral, though at a
high density, and people are reacting positively to them.
The
excess energy has crawled out to my extremities now, I find myself
uncontrollably grinding my fingertips against rough surfaces. My hands are fidgeting
and moving a lot though my larger muscles are still content to be at rest. A
powerful bruxism has set in, I chew some gum to alleviate it. Other physical
effects like nausea are absent, as are any sort of visual or other sensory
effects. There is no sense of physical pleasure either, it’s all fairly neutral
aside from the stimming in my extremities.
I
tend not to like empathogens, it feels like a fake chemical happiness, a
glittering façade over my often insufferably gloomy demeanor. I find MDMA exemplifies
this to the greatest degree. With this substance though, it feels more like a
genuine sense of self satisfaction and acceptance. I am okay with who I am
right now and I am okay with sharing that with the people around me.
T1:45-
An uptick in physical side effects signals the tail end of the peak- now I am entering
into the familiar territory of cathinones. The shortness of breath and
tightness in my chest builds and builds. I find myself swallowing a lot. My
fingers are uncontrollably in perpetual motion. It feels like every fine muscle
in my body is screaming for attention, though it is still within a tolerable
threshold. Other cathinones I have experienced (Hexen, α-PCYP) have pushed the physical
stimulation way past the limit of my comfort. I certainly wasn’t comfortable
now, but it was tolerable, it didn’t have me reaching for benzos to calm it
down. The hyperthermia has died down and a window opening to let out the smoke
in the room has prompted me to rerobe most of my layers. All I want to do right
now is languish and lounge on soft surfaces- I am blessed by a soft carpet that
I can stretch out on like a cat and a large beanbag I can sink into.
T2:15- The novelty has died down by this
point, I no longer feel the thrill and motivation of speaking to people as I
did before. I become more muted and selective in my speech- the verbosity and
gregariousness I was expressing before seems tedious and tired now. All that’s
left is the physical stimulant effects and a spacey burnt out sensation. It’s not
unpleasant at all, just not as pleasant as before. All things considered, this
is a relatively gentle comedown. I am still altered in the presence of friends
and acquaintances and I am still able to socialize, I am just choosing not to
unless someone else speaks to me first. I have found my comfort in fidgeting on
the big beanbag. The most uncomfortable physical effect now is probably the
excess swallowing. I feel like I am starting to get a sore throat from it.
T3:15-
I am still burning at close to the same degree I was an hour ago. I am more
taciturn now, content to chat just a little. The party is thinning out now and
I feel like going home and relaxing in my own space. I am able to take public transportation
home without any issue. The shortness of breath, the hand fidgeting and the
excess swallowing persist. I don’t feel drowsy by any means, but I feel
mentally exhausted as a stimulant comedown will do.
T6:00-
I have been at home smoking weed and playing video games for some time. I am noticeably
awake, though not aggressively stimulated, at least mentally. The physical effects
still persist to this point. I am definitely unable to sleep as it stands. I don’t
have much appetite either but I force down a meal. I decide to dose 1mg
flualprazolam to sleep as I have to get up for work the next day. The physical stimulant
effects seem to die down as the flualprazolam kicks in and are absent when I
wake up the next day, save for a bit of extra finger fidgeting.
Conclusion:
I won’t explicitly discuss price but I will say I got this for extremely cheap.
The only reason I even decided to try it was because it was so cheap. I’m not normally
inclined towards empathogens. However, I personally found this one delightful
at this dose. It wasn’t the overclocked intensive stimulation some empathogens can
give me, and I didn’t find myself veering into the territory of being overly
sentimental or overwhelmingly social where I feel like I am annoying the people
around me. It was ideal for a low-key social setting like the small intimate
party I was attending. There were some annoying physical side effects, but they
weren’t sufficient enough to negate or ruin the whole of the experience and subsided
almost entirely with a night’s sleep (aided by a benzodiazepine to be fair). Best
of all though, the comedown was relatively gentle, while the annoying side
effects persisted there wasn’t any noticeable harsh drop off in mood or thought
beyond a normal and manageable stimulant burn out. It was a gradual and gentle
landing.
Seeing
as this was a mostly pleasant experience, the drug is extremely cheap and easy
to obtain, and it comes in the form of aesthetic large crystals, I can absolutely
see either dishonest or misinformed dealers trying to pass this off as MDMA. It
reiterates the need to always always test street MDMA, as it is one of the most
commonly misrepresented drugs. Though personally, I think I prefer Eutylone at
this sweet spot dose. Perhaps I simply need to try lower doses of MDMA in the
future for a more pleasant experience.
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