Weight: 120 lbs
Dosage: 25 mg oral in gel cap
Setting: My apartment
T0:00- Dosed in gel cap.
T0:10- Take a shower.
T0:30- Finish shower. Nothing yet
except a slight nauseous feeling.
T0:40- Feeling uplifted and
euphoric, like a good psychedelic comeup. I feel sedated too, perhaps not
sedated as much as not feeling the expected stimulation.
T1:10- Nausea is very prominent
now. I feel pretty uncomfortable. None of the usual chills or jitters or
shakiness though. I just feel faded with a blunted affect.
T1:20- The tremors and jitters
and shudders and rest of the body load settle in now. I throw up. It sucks but
I feel better afterwards. Still some nausea and aching but I feel okay.
T1:30- Nausea and aching return. But now I feel deeper in its awesome yawning headspace. It is lucid, I can clearly think and meditate, thoughts are rational and connected, almost too perfectly. Visuals begin to appear as swirling and drifting textures at the corners of my vision.
T2:00- I am beginning to
definitely peak now. The visuals are large and flashing- they are not overly
meticulous and intricate, but rather a harmonious assemblage of larger
intertwined and interacting forms and patterns. Not so much nausea anymore as
just cramping and aching. Everything feels like its caught in a swirling eddy
or twisting whirlwind, everything twists and twirls and rolls as it moves.
The closed eyed visuals are
spectacular and dissimilar from other phenethylamines I have taken. They are
3-dimensional forms, looking rendered and produced as CGI. It reminds me of
dissociatives. Except I am not able to sink into any sort of dissociative
state, no matter how hard I meditate. This does not seem to be a drug that
lends itself to ego death or total confusion / break with reality. Rather, it
seems to anchor me in reality as an absolutely observant form to efficiently
process thoughts and stimuli. Behind my eyelids pyramids and cones and prisms
and rhombs cast in dramatic stark light shift around in their respective
planes. Soon they find themselves coated in checkerboard patterns, their
backdrop a swirling tie dye kaleidoscope of swirling dim yet vibrant colors and
textures. Forms that resemble greek columns float in from the wings of my
vision.
The open eyed visuals make me
recall my first times doing acid. Semi-biomorphic and pariedoilic forms decorate
the walls and ceiling like incredibly intricate and detailed relief carvings. They
seem to recede into infinite depth, hallways of textures lined with the stoic
chiseled faces of birds and reptilian beings. Every time I move my eyes, a line
of tracers follows the object of my focus, like that old windows xp glitch when
you tried to drag a window that was not responding. The patterns that form an
interstice between these forms are serpentine, angular tendrils and ropes
entwining to form intricate laceworks. They are floral, they blossom and ripple
with concentric lines. I decide to go outside and play around in my garden.
T2:30- This drug has gladly taken the
opportunity today to introduce me to its properties. It enhances perception, it
enhances associative rationalizing, it enhances mental efficiency and acuity,
it is perfect for aiding introspection, while itself providing an exciting substrate
to explore, an infinitely nested scaffolding of absurdity and novelty. However,
this comes at a price, it comes at the price of one’s body. Indeed, the nausea
I had complained about before still came back in waves. This drug is elegant
and reserved in how it will receive visitors. I probably would have been having
an awful experience were I not experienced in general. With pain comes wisdom.
The visuals are bright, glowing
and buzzing with adamantine rainbow auras, they are also eerie, with a thousand
pariedoilic faces staring at me everywhere I glance. The CEV world is the same
stimmy colorful checkerboard world I described before, and while I canno sink
into a dissociated CEV space with my eyes closed, I can get distracted by the
silliness and novelty of the drug long enough to lose track of time. The
visuals are beginning to look like spirographs and wireframes.
T2:45- Empathogenic effect noted
around now. I want to tell my friends how great they are and how much I
appreciate them. I want to tell my
friends who like substances about this glorious challenge I have set upon myself.
I feel as though the sheer introspective power of this mysterious drug lends it
immense therapeutic potential.
T3:00- Still peaking hard. I am
back inside now, after collecting several insect specimens. Everything feels so
deep and profound, the closest experience I can liken this two is 4-HO-MET.
Especially with the lasting bodyload. I am able to draw definite and cryptic
connections between all sorts of thoughts and ideas.
T3:30-I meditate for a while. I
feel like my mind has gone onto working automatically, and more efficiently.
Like replacing the potential for human error with that of an extremely
efficient machine. My brain is a computer, processing inputs and responding
methodically and meticulously. Thoughts were just branching and blossoming in
reaction to one another. Time was a major theme of this meditation, thoughts on
my past, on the distant past, thoughts on the distant future and how others
experience time. Indeed, time was heavily altered in my state of meditation, I
could use the music that was playing as a way to guide this- I would hear it
slow down and speed up. My sense of time had become completely arbitrary. I have
a headache now. The visuals this time with my eyes closed were intertwining
ribbons that embraced and wound around one another. They formed colorful and
harmonious patterns, too perfect for this world. My flow of thoughts is lucid,
focused, and unclouded. It doesn’t even seem like I have that infectious
curiosity that a lot of drugs give me.
T5:00- Still peaking. I make arts
and crafts, my stomach still hurts.
T5:30- Cramps subsiding, Coming
down now.
T8:00- Back to baseline.
Conclusion: This is the first
experience with a 2C-T-x substance, 2 of which (2C-T-2 and 2C-T-7) are highly praised
by shulgin (though in my reading it seems people like 2C-T-21 the best). The
last one, 2C-T-4, doesn’t get as much positive press. They have all been
described as powerful, therapeutic, challenging, and introspective. Indeed they
are all rough on the body, featuring nausea and vomiting. Their unique
composition gives them unique pharmaceutical interactions, mostly stemming from
their activity as a weak MAOI. I had a gap in my medications due to fucking up
getting a psychiatrist appointment, so I took the opportunity to sample this
one while my blood was pure. Infinitely deep and rewarding compound with a lot
to offer, and novel headspace, shame it hurts so much though. Its lessons must
come through pain.
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