Age: 23
Weight: 130 lbs
Dosage:
70 mg oral DiPT
Setting:
My apartment
I
had already experimented once with DiPT. I tested the waters with a low dose,
as my research had suggested that along with its novel auditory effects, DiPT
is heavy on the mind and body. I ended up polluting and adorning my first
experience with an assortment of other substances after finding it much more
manageable than expected. For this second experiment I increased the dose and made
sure to not add anything to it other than cannabis.
T0:00-
Dose taken in gel cap.
T0:40-
Begin to feel the first notes- the usual nausea, though it is slighter than it
is with many tryptamines.
T0:50-
The other expected physical symptoms begin to kick in- chills, shaking, further
GI discomfort.
T0:56-
The first hint of the predicted auditory effects begins to manifest. There is a
slightly noticeable drop in pitch. I am listening to familiar music to serve as
a reference.
T1:15-
Sounds are getting deeper. Despite the fact that I am objectively being slowly
and gradually immersed into this experience, I have a sense of rapidly and
violently sinking and spinning down and down, like a pebble in a lake- it's
like a auditorily illustrated descent into madness, a great big waterslide into
a bulging syrup that swallows every sound that comes to me. My mind is reeling
and I am shaking a great deal more.
T1:35-
It’s still burgeoning and ballooning, I put a playlist of familiar music on
shuffle as a reference point to fully analyze the alterations. The slide into
this trip is gradual and continuous- it seems like every song sounds deeper
than the last. Perhaps this is a perceptual illusion, like a Shepard’s tone,
but what isn’t a perceptual illusion while tripping? Are the effects
asymptotic? At what point will they level out? Only the passage of time will
answer these questions. However just when I think I am following a predictable
slide into the bubbling cauldron of effects, new perceptions begin to manifest-
There
is slight warping at the edges of my vision, like viewing the world through a
glass disc, curved around its rim. It is subtle but definitely noticeable. This
was entirely absent with a lower dose.
Soon
the auditory changes are not characterized only by a drop in tone, but also by
a sense of bending and flanging and whirling and warping. It feels analogous to
how the visual effects of psychedelics alter base visual perception- the ways in
which my visual input would be altered have transposed themselves onto my
auditory stimuli. Perhaps if I had more understanding of sound, tone, and music
theory, I would be able to discern patterns and structures similar to the
patterns and superstructures present in the visual perceptions of more standard
psychedelics. To my mind however, it is simply a chaotic and esoteric shakedown
of my sensory experience. The timbre of everything simply sounds “broken” for
lack of any better description- it all feels so wrong, yet it is simply the
experience I have subjected myself to, and I am content to accept that.
The
bodyload sits atop the trip like a gargoyle, unpleasant but entirely
manageable. The nausea is bubbling and tense, as if the churning of my stomach
has a magnetic energy that pulls my muscles inwards towards it, taut and
unnerving.
T2:00-
To answer my previous questions- sounds still do seem to be getting deeper,
albeit it a slower and subtler rate. I would describe the progression of
effects as being certainly asymptotic. My auditory input is adorned with
further hallucinatory effects- Now there are odd off kilter harmonies sliding
up alongside everything – as if every sound has a duplicate that is shifted
slightly out of phase, turning the world into a beautiful cacophony of
discordant tones, yet this is not unpleasant in the least, it is mostly
fascinating.
The
last time I did this, I found the novelty of the experience exhilarating. I
felt elated and euphoric and wanted to communicate this enthusiasm with
everybody I knew, as if the drug had an empathogenic effect. This time around
however, the novelty has worn off and the experience is very matter of fact-
merely existing before me. Perhaps all of the euphoria, the excitement, the
sociability from last time was just a result of being enthralled at the novelty
of the experience. I am decidedly content with the experience I am having now
but am not feeling much beyond that.
Cognitively
I am still largely functional, typing the same, existing the same, I could
probably pass for sober in most contexts were I not so weirded out and
distracted by the alterations to sound.
T2:36-
Things definitely have a sort of ringing metallic quality now, as if every
sound is being played inside of or being emitted from a steel drum. It is like
the room has become round and reflective around me and every sound is bouncing
off the walls and splattering and clattering around every which way, a sharp
metallic reverberance.
The
out of phase harmonies that accompanied every sound have now taken on a form of
their own, it’s as if every bit of input has a ghost image, shifted slightly
askew, fuzzed and twisted into a ringing, beeping, buzzy corruption of their
source, a pixelated simulacrum.
T2:50-
Decided to work on a drawing that was commissioned by one of my friends. I
notice that my drawing ability doesn't feel altered in any way- none of the
flowing traceries and patterns and repetitive or radiating or exponential forms
that I typically draw while on psychedelics. While listening to more music I notice the flanging
effect is less noted through headphones than through speakers, as if the distance
the sound travels through the air gives it a greater capacity for the drug to
wrangle it and bend it out of shape. Another odd effect is music with voices
that have been pitched up now sound completely normal- this shouldn’t be
surprising or interesting in the least, it was entirely expected, but it was
interesting to observe. Aside from that, sounds still are tinny and have an odd
ring to them.
T4:20-
The effects have for the most part leveled off- the asymptote is now in its holding
pattern as it approaches zero. I have been watching youtube videos for the
better part of the last hour. Mostly videos of airsoft because I was curious
about the hobby, having never participated. Watching videos of people and
hearing their voices in a non-musical context provides for a new interesting
stimulus. Every voice of course sounds lower, but is also accompanied by an odd
low buzzing, like a speaker clipping. It’s as if there is a fuzzy distortion
oozing off of every sound and pooling at their feet, a jumble of artifacts and
noise.
T6:00-
The auditory effects linger but barely noticeable at this point. I am unsure as
to whether or not I have simply gotten used to them and tuned them out or
whether they have truly faded. I don’t really care to be honest though. I smoke
more cannabis and it has no effect on that aspect of the experience.
T7:00-
Call it a night and go to sleep with no problem.
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