Age: 21
Weight: 125 lbs
Dosage: 12 mg
Intranasal
Setting: My apartment
T0:00-Dosed Intranasally on an overcast
day. A new roommate has moved in and my house is not silent and lonely anymore.
The pain isn’t the instant drilling burning of 2C-B. Rather, it’s a slow burn,
it just sinks in and smolders inside of my face.
T0:05-The pain has reached a peak
now, still not comparable to how acute the pain of 2C-B is. It’s still a
pulsing seething pain. It’s a white hot ember landing in my face and slowly
burning out, as opposed to a blowtorch being shoved right up my nose. It stings
my palate and the drip feels like a sore throat. It is entirely tolerable
however (despite the severity of the earlier description…), especially compared
to other things I have insufflated. I feel like I am getting lighter.
T0:15-The drip is nauseating, but
still tolerable overall. I wash with saline and it relieves the lingering pain,
the salty bitterness that drips down my throat is unpleasant but it hearkens
the end of the discomfort from this ROA. Overall, snorting this was not nearly
as bad as some other drugs, especially other 2Cs.
T0:20-I begin grinding my teeth, and
light visual distortions begin to manifest. No part of this feels “intense” in
any sense, rather it’s a smooth ride through the swirling world of 2C-I that
came on a bit faster/ at a lower dose than if I had taken it orally. The
visuals seem harmonious with what I am actually perceiving, and do not impede
my vision in any way. I smoke a joint as a the peak crashes over, like I
usually do.
T0:30-I am pacing and dancing
around my room, this is fantastic. I suddenly notice how filthy it is. I notice
how much my body wants to move, how I am a mind with this perfectly
controllable and highly responsive body at my disposal, how I can be the
puppeteer that leads this body to do my absolute bidding. I notice how filthy
my living space is- not just the mess strewn about but the actual filth in the
carpet, the fact that I haven’t vacuumed this room for a whole year. This
bothers me for the first time ever. What proceeds is a manic cleaning fit,
literally refusing to afford myself even a second of rest or immobility. I
clean up all the mess and organize all of my things, working up a substantial
sweat and winding my frail body in the process. I then get to vacuuming every
inch of the room, frantically and frenetically dragging the vacuum around the
room and cleaning the filth like my life depended on it. It felt so great to do
this, simply the knowledge that I managed to finally motivate myself to make my
living conditions acceptable. That I not only saw fit to do so, but actually
accomplished the task too. My work done, I threw myself onto my bed and
breathed myself a sigh of relief in my nice clean room. I imagine this is what Adderall
is like for people, only I had wonderful rainbow visuals dancing in the corners
of my vision and pulsing through the entire clean space. This is so simultaneously stimulating and relaxing.
T1:10-Woowee doing stuff felt
good, especially in contrast to the mind numbing inactivity that occupies most
of my time. I want to do stuff, I want to be productive and feel accomplished.
I always make excuses to put off tasks but now feels like the time to disregard
any excuse and just get stuff done. I decide to go down to my entomology collection
in the making and heavily organize all of it. It’s in total disarray as I am
not the most organized person and I also procrastinate with all the boring
clerical work regarding its upkeep. I go through every bit of it and write up
labels for everything I have left unlabeled. This is a huge step and something
I had been putting off for many weeks. I get it done in 20 minutes and sit
back, wholly satisfied with my work. Visual distortions are light, in no way
impeding this work. Mentally I am focused almost to the point of being in a
trance. I decide to go outside and collect more insects.
T1:30-I am in my backyard, trying
to catch little bees from flowers with tweezers. While my previous experiences
with 2C-I gave me increased coordination and control of my body, it seems to be
lacking now. My attempts to capture them are largely fruitless (although I get
it eventually!). I am getting swarmed by mosquitos, more than I have
experienced even in the tropics. They are making a delicious meal of me. I don’t
mind at all however. I rationalize that as an entomologist I should get used to
incredibly uncomfortable field conditions, and that this is training for what
will inevitably be a career of dealing with legions of mosquitos, sweltering
heat, bludgeoning humidity and all sorts of other discomforts. It feels good to
suffer like this, when I think it will contribute to some greater whole.
T2:00-I go back inside and take
some Benadryl to counteract the fact that I am entirely covered in bites. I
talk to my friends online. Conversation is excellent, my thoughts flow so smoothly
and precisely, and they are guided by a distinct perceptive and empathogenic
edge. I am substantially more eloquent and articulate. With previous
experiences with 2C-I, it was like my mind was at last in perfect coordination
with my body. And now my mind was in perfect coordination with my words. I
could express my thoughts cleanly and without any discrepancy between mouth (er
… fingers ….) and brain.
T2:45-I smoke a lot of weed from
my gravity bong. This kicks things up super high, I lie on my bed and sink into
the most intense visual-hallucinatory state I have ever experienced from 2C-I.
Time becomes meaningless as I wander a vast library of absurdity in my mind at
a leisurely pace. I lose track of everything becoming engrossed in strange
chains of thoughts about strange things, and from there the strange
associations that generate new strange thoughts about strange things in strange
places. It’s so incredibly surreal but feels so natural. I become aware of how
totally dissociated from reality me and these thought processes are, yet it
still feels so natural, just a total paradigm shift. My mind has accepted these
new conditions with open arms, and denies that any other mode of thought could
exist. The CEV’s are incredibly mechanical, not even sharp and synthetic but
very literally machine like, at times seeming like biomachines with insect legs
and at other times being purely geometric pieces moving in unison with one
another to make great intricate machines and fields of circuitry. It is like I
am being sucked into my head.
T3:30-I’m mostly coming down now.
T4:30-Mostly only afterglow at
this point.
T6:00-Entirely back to baseline.
Conclusion-The 2C family can feel
like entirely different drugs depending on how you administer them. The oral
ROA is an entirely different experience than insufflated. This is chiefly in
the timing- you come up fast and hard, you get faceplanted into the experience
from the top of a 12 story building, rather than the slow descent the oral ROA
gives you. Not to mention the incredibly pain of snorting them. With 2C-I, the
contrast seems to manifest at a deeper level. The intense focus I had felt was
entirely unique among all the drugs I have tried. I imagine a good dose of
regular stimulants would be like this for most people, but this had the added
benefit of psychedelic visuals and the psychedelic headspace. 2C-I has been
cemented as a powerful tool of self-augmentation to me, both physically and
mentally. It improves all of my functions to various degrees in various ways
and will certainly serve me well in the future.
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