Weight: 120 lbs
Dosage: 75 mg oral in gel cap
Setting: My apartment
T0:00-Dosed
T0:45-Onset- Feel a bit of nausea
and a warm rising feeling in my gut
T1:00-There are random spots of
warm and cold on my skin, but overall I feel warm and kinda sweaty. There are
cloudy and indistinct CEV’s and I have this spacey dizzy feeling like I am on a
rocking ship.
T1:15-Smoke weed. It feels as
though I am being warmly compressed and that I am drifting away from myself in
some abstract dissociating way. The CEV’s slowly becoming more distinct, they
are chunky and like gears, with teeth and large blocky projections.
T1:35-A quaking vibration
unsettles me from within. Everything feels deeper in every sense. Words,
phrases, conversation and abstract stimuli all seem to be more profound, like
there is infinite depth and detail that I can peer over. Sensory stimuli feel
deeper too. Everything sounds like it is in a great globular echo chamber, with
greater reverberation and a richer, more built up ‘depth’ to each sound.
Visually things seem deeper too, with spaces appearing larger and objects
appearing further away, or rather more detail being apparent across distances.
Tracers begin to appear on shadows and I feel somewhat cold.
T2:00- OEV’s begin to present. It
is like the room has been filled with a colorful fog, blobbing and bulging and
swirling. They are still indistinct, like they are composed similarly to an
impressionist painting. I made the mistake of eating popcorn at this time
because I figured the experience wouldn’t get any stronger than this. The
nausea is coming and going in waves. A definite mental enhancement/artificial confidence
is presenting. I feel like I can do anything. Everything feels syrupy.
T2:10- Definitely feel like I am
peaking now, it is like a great tidal wave has washed over me and swamped me in
its swells.
T2:15- Oh man did I underestimate
this. It feels like my body is being smeared and streaked and dragged around. I
feel bloated and I am burping a lot. It is as though a waterfall is crashing
down on me, or I am in the swells of a flooded rushing river. The drug has
picked me up in its great doughy clutches and is thrashing me around. Everything
is wobbling and bubbling, the swirling of the world around me is only serving
to make me feel sicker. I eventually throw up, I probably would’ve been fine if
I hadn’t eaten all that popcorn honestly. I feel so faint and faded like I am
fading into my surroundings, molding into them and becoming incorporated into
their surfaces which soon become overwhelmed by swells and swirls like a
turbulent sea. It is very stimulating too, I am shaking a lot and feelings
antsy, like there are ants crawling in my veins. Sounds echo and are resplendent,
blossoming like fern fronds, it feels as though the world around me is being
taken to pieces, each of which blossoms of its own accord. I am shattered into
particles, and each particle turns to goopy syrup and is taken away on this
great river.
T2:35- My body feels off, it
feels uncomfortable and wrong, as if it is in some place it shouldn’t be, or is
existing n some way that it shouldn’t be. My chest feels tight and light
simultaneously. My heart is fluttering. I see faces and figures in the corners
of my vision. It’s scary to look into reflective surfaces, as strange dark
figures appear in them. Mysterious, indistinct, and indescribable auditory
hallucinations come in from every direction. I have to urinate frequently. This
swirling fog that has become my visuals has turned thick and all encompassing. Everything
I see appears distant and like a vast landscape, the whole world is an
immeasurable vista expanding out before me. Every aspect of the world around me
is twisting like clockwork, intertwining and interlocking, meshing into
ambiguous forms. This begins to appear as open eyed visuals-detailed and deep
textures overlaid on everything, not really any clear patterns but
3-dimensional visuals. It is as if I am viewing another dimension that has
become physically manifest before me in some way I can sense and comprehend. My
entire field of vision is flashing various colors (red, blue, teal, green). Everything
is blurry. The experience is very hard to describe and focus on, it is like it
is purposely trying to elude comprehension. I am suddenly stricken by an
intense inability to focus. I try to think about the experience and take notes,
but I keep getting pulled away, I keep getting distracted and drawn off without
even noticing that I have been led astray. It feels like I am swimming against
the current, or trying to dive down with a floatation device attached. This isn’t
the intense scatterbrained focus that comes with being stoned or other
psychedelics. This is just raw and shallow distraction, I can’t engage with
anything or learn anything or effectively do anything. Sometimes, with certain
substances, I can harness my distractability to really sink into various tasks
and take in a wide range of information. This just feels flat and pallid.
T3:00- I go outside. It is
magical, the sky is beautiful and rippling with colors and patterns. The air
feels so fresh and pleasant. However, I am still having immense trouble
focusing on anything. The nausea has mostly left me at this point.
T3:30- I had to pee, and I peed
for a very long time. I’m not sure how I had that much water in me. It was
somewhat uncomfortable.
T4:00- Feeling down more. There
is just a spaciness and dizziness in my head, like the brink of dissociation.
Not the warm burnt afterglow of psychedelics, not the heightened intelligence
or better flowing thought, just a blunted feeling.
T7:00- Back to baseline. Go to
bed.
Conclusion: 5-MeO-tryptamines are
fuckin weird. Ask most people and they’ll tell you that they are not very
visual but mentally very deep. This is true, and that’s a very vague
description. In my experience, no group of drugs has been able to defy
descriptions more than these weird tryptamines, to the point where they are
divorced from the rest of the tryptamine family and could be considered a class
of drugs of their own. This one in particular filled me with a crushing
inability to focus. What a weird drug. I’m not sure if the experience was
enjoyable and there was a bit of bodyload. Probably won’t repeat the
experience, there isn’t much value to me except as a novelty.
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